I guess this is my attempt at healing; I know that I may end up torturing myself with people’s comments and posts, I just ask that you be open-minded and attempt to be kind. I am a 34-year-old mother of two, married to my High School Sweet Heart, who, I just found out was cheating on me for the past three months. I am sad, and lonely, and angry, and confused, and feel so afraid of what is to come next in my life. It has been a little less than a month since I had absolute confirmation, I will attach my “diary” entries, as that is what I will basically will be doing until I understand this blogging thing. As of today we are “working on it together”, which means attempting at all costs to not talk about it at all. I walk through life as if I am dead, I don’t know if I am feeling things anymore, my children are probably the true victims because suddenly their mother is a broken person who is unable to properly function. I am by nature a smart and strong woman, I could never ever have imagined in my worst nightmare being in this predicament, let alone “putting up with it”. I don’t know what my future holds, I honestly want my future to have my husband in it, I love him, have always loved him, and despite how pathetic that makes me sound and feel, that’s what I want, and for now it’s what I am willing to fight for.